I thought that these had been widely picked up on, but speaking to a few people, it appears they were not. 

They`re 9 Youtube playlists privately put together by Andrew, that were shared sometime Tuesday by his close friend and confidante, Nina Walsh. The Black Notebooks 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, and 9.

I stayed up late Friday and listened to them as I tied one on. 

They helped and they didn’t help. Since, they`re incredible selections of music, further illustrating the lengths that Andrew went to tracking stuff down, but in the main they are fragile songs of heartbreak and regret. 

All beautiful, but I didn’t like to think of the big man there, alone, drink in hand, past the Witching Hour, chasing a memory from video to video, lost in nostalgia. But I know I’ve done it. I’m sure we all have.

Rapt in a kind of sadness that somehow brings comfort. It`s good to stop and remember those who are distant, sometimes.

I could feel the hurt, and I didn’t want to think about him hurting.

He was Superman, or Spiderman, wasn’t he? Not leaping tall buildings, or spinning webs of any size, but always ready to parry any attack with a witty retort. That was his superpower. 

The writer Joe “Muggs” Mugford – do yourself a favour and purchase a copy of his brilliant Bass, Mids, Tops – painstakingly transcribed the songs for those with Spotify. Sober now, it seems that I cut-and-pasted all the titles when I was pissed….

John Murry Little Colored Balloons 

Small Faces – Autumn Stone

Guy Clark – To Live Is To Fly

Townes Van Zandt – Dead Flowers 

Luh -The Great Longing

The Blue Aeroplanes – Your Ages

Jackie Leven – Working Alone / A Blessing

Television Personalities – Stop And Smell The Roses

The Stockholm Monsters – Decalogue

Mick Robson – I’d Give Anything To See You

Durutti Column – Never Known

Tim Buckley – Song to the Siren

Willie Nelson – Seven Spanish Angels

The Pogues – Love You Til The End

The Chi-Lites – The Coldest Days Of My Life

The Flaming Stars – Too Late To Turn Back, Too Early To Say Goodbye

Bill drummond – I Believe In Rock n Roll 

The Triffids – Wide Open Road

Cowboys International – The ‘No’ Tune

Walkabouts – Feel Like Going Home

Ryley Walker – The Roundabout

Meilyr Jones – Be Soft

Girls – Hellhole Ratrace

Pink Military – I Cry

Rowland S Howard – Autoluminescent

Boys Next Door – Shivers

The Walker Brothers – Lines

Crocodiles – All My Hate And My Hexes Are For You

Primal Scream – Darklands

Felt – Primitive Painters

Epic Soundtracks – I Wanna Be Free

The Monkees – Shades of Gray

John Foxx & Robin Guthrie – My Life As An Echo

Dead Can Dance – Don’t Fade Away

Leonard Cohen – In My Secret Life

The Clash – Shepherds Delight

Soulsavers – Revival

Edwyn Collins – ForSooth

Aztec Camera – We Could Send Letters

Husker Du – Hardly Getting Over It

Nikki Sudden – If I Could Write Poetry

Moon Duo – Lost in Light

First Aid Kit – Emylou

Blood, Sweat & Tears – I Love You More Than You’ll Ever Know

Blancmange – Sad Day

Metro Trinity – Slip Away

Collins & Quinn – Pale Blue Eyes

Kinks – Too Much On My Mind

Schneider TM & Kptmichigan – The Light 3000

Joe Gideon & the Shark – Anything You Love That Much, You Will See Again

The Replacements – Sadly Beautiful

Kevin Ayers – Whatevershebringswesing

Grant Hart – She Can See The Angels Coming

The Five Stair Steps – Ooh Child

The Persuaders – Thin Line between Love & Hate

Paul Quinn & The Independent Group – Will I Ever Be Inside Of You

The Moonlandingz – The Strangle Of Anna

Thurston Moore – Smoke Of Dreams

Alan Vega – Love Cry

The seeds – Faded Picture

Nico – Sixty Forty

The Warlocks – Dreamless Days

The Third Sound – For a While

Sigue Sigue Sputnik – Is This The Future

Julian Cope – I Can Remember This Life

RTX – Cheap Wine Time

Rowland S. Howard – Shut Me Down

David Sylvian & Robert Fripp – Earthbound

Billy Fury – Don’t Jump Billy

Carol – So Low

Opale – Sparkles and Wine

Cold Colors – Memories On A Screen

Crawling Chaos – Macabre Royale 

Sort Sol – Marble Station

Gerry and the Holograms – Increased Resistance

Autumn – Kill My World

The Creation – If I Stay Too Long

Golen – Orion Awakes

B E D R O O M – In My Head

Still Corners – The Trip

Solid Space – Darkness In My Soul

Nagamatzu – Carmine

The Pastels – Thank You for Being You.

King Midas Sound / Fennesz – Lighthouse Version

Figurine – Stranger

The Go-Betweens – Quiet Heart

Rowland S Howard – She Cried

Mexico 70 – I’ll Hate For You

Peter Perrett – An Epic Story 

Gregory Alan Isakov with the Colorado Symphony – Liars

Bob Dylan – Shelter From The Storm

Robert Forster – Demon Days

Kevin Ayers and John Cale

Kevin Ayers- Why Are We Sleeping

Milton Chesley Carroll – It’ll All Come Down In Time

You know I was devastated when both Prince and Bowie passed away. Cried as I karaoke`d Star Man and Sometimes It Snows In April. But this IS different. I never for a minute imagined myself as the Thin White Duke or The Purple Imp Of The Perverse. I`d often make believe that I was Andrew Weatherall.